怪物

有些事情當你以為自己知道，即使那是醜惡，你以為你知道，當要赤裸裸去面對時，那震憾仍是使你無以名狀。





我們控制、改造、幽禁、催谷、憎恨、虐待、虐殺，面目猙獰，我們是怪物。我是怪物。

我的心揪作一團，但我能做的只是說聲對不起。


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bb

a journey like elyah's
swift and bright
caught gently upwards in the chariot of all blazing light
with death untasted and the grave unknown

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i (kinda) love myself

have u ever wanted to eat just for later throwing it back up? have u ever wonder ur ideal weight should be 65lbs? have u ever fallen into cycles of binge/purge so much that u became an expert of throwing up and made a homepage to show people ur tips and tricks of how to make throw up easier than ever? have u ever hated urself so much that u rather cut urself good just for a second of silence?

that isnt me.

i realize i love myself more than i thought after i know what some people do to themselves for reasons painful to understand.