i (kinda) love myself

have u ever wanted to eat just for later throwing it back up? have u ever wonder ur ideal weight should be 65lbs? have u ever fallen into cycles of binge/purge so much that u became an expert of throwing up and made a homepage to show people ur tips and tricks of how to make throw up easier than ever? have u ever hated urself so much that u rather cut urself good just for a second of silence?

that isnt me.

i realize i love myself more than i thought after i know what some people do to themselves for reasons painful to understand.