healing grins

some say just try making smiling faces, lifting the corners of ur mouth for often and long enough, u'll start to feel chirpy. dont know if this works, i tried something else though, very much like the making smiling faces thing. i told a friend that i was feeling chirpy the day i felt exactly opposite and really wanted to meet him. he said he's happy to know that i was chirpy and was a disgrace for not able to meet me when i was in such good mood. i was just like yea yea ok no pro and bye. for a second there, i was almost convinced that it wasnt feeling that bad in that sunny sat afternoon.

i used to want friends to ease my sadness by sharing the feeling but it was wrong. it really doesnt help to say things so depress and empty. sadness doesnt share it spreads, like disease. i'd rather seal it in, and learned heals come from within, i cant count on anyone except myself. and it isnt that bad to know that. it helps me to be a stronger person. guess it's time to get those muscles of the corners of my mouth to work.