"it's all because of love."

you're a mischievous little genie
you put a veil between us

i dont tell you im in a bad shape," "
i criticize you, " "
we bumped into each other, entwine deeply into your thorn-weaved veil we bleed.
if " ", show me. you cover your wound too perfectly while im not clever a girl to see your heart aches so bad please forgive me, and let it flow naturally please.

what you feel is what i care the most,
dont hurt me, dont be fooled by that veil,
satisfy me with your honesty.
" " is the genie who cannot be let out of the bottle.

十塊錢的半年分天然精華

別說女為悅己者容，今天男子漢都去修眉。我們花多少心力去令自己漂亮，此中能量可誕生另一個宇宙。然而令人漂亮應該有三：養生、愛情與護膚，不煙不酒不熬夜的還不是穴居人？剩下的是愛情與護膚品，同樣是可遇不可求？不一定。

嘗試過不少護膚品，便宜的到昂貴的；爽的到膩的；似有還無的到刺痛的，千舤已過，已有了心得的，可喜可賀；若都是沒甚起色已經自我放逐的，不用氣餒，蘆薈是值得一試的天然選擇。

朋友說：「對暗瘡真有效，剪一小塊，往上面一貼，早上起來就好。」太神奇，也不是不信朋友，但就是覺得不能入信，蘆薈被一扔拋諸腦後。忽然一天，又覺一試無妨，卻又不知往哪去買，買豆腐時順道問問嬸嬸：「你用來塗臉嗎？我女兒也塗呀，她生痤瘡呀，你知道痤瘡嗎？很大的那種暗瘡呢，塗了真好，很管用的呀。你很滑溜沒暗瘡呀，你去那邊買吧。」未買都即賺。

買回來了，又想起一段往事。一次跟客人吃飯，她說試著吃蘆薈減肥，買了回來要把它去皮，一搞搞到夜半二時：「很難刨呀，刨到我死，真淒涼呀。」今次換我了：


最初也沒用蒜茸夾夾汁，就是起了肉放在雪櫃，那麼多，後來當然是浪費了，之後才開始放進冰格。說起來，結冰後再劈也不太方便，可能可以試試一買回來就全條做成汁，再放冰格結冰，用時才拿一個冰粒出來，更有效率。

睇相佬呃你十年八年，蘆薈，十塊錢，用半年，無添加 100% 天然，而且真正有效，也可試試自己種，怡情綠化減肥護膚，一物多用，還有甚麼比她更物美價廉？

點

要感到存在，不被重視，是否不存在？
沒有，不是沒有，是一時沒想起。你存在。我忘記。
半杯水。就這樣錯開了，又錯開。

我以為我明白你。我以為你明白我。
我表達的，不是你所感受的，要再組織。
痛病工作錯開睡眠越過生活，不能組織。
擱著，擱置，擱淺，如鯨。

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感到被愛，卻有寂寞存在。
何故？
未知時異獸已伺機襲來。
全部？
全部。
今天。
未知時異獸已伺機襲來，
半杯水，鯨魚能不能不擱淺？

姊妹倆

不經不覺，妹妹姐姐被禁室培育了已經三年多，首先是妹 2006 年 3 月到來，沒想到，一個月後姐也來了。猶記得妹來的那晚，驚鴻一瞥那小巧可愛面相，搭配上肥碩圓滾的身體(雖然事隔多年，每每回想仍然無減強烈對比所形成之震撼)，七嘴八舌一輪道謝道別，便滿的士是「勾嗚」地回家去了，姐也是這樣回來的，我卻忘了帶姐姐來的，是不是帶妹妹的那個粉紅膠藍。

三妹黑白是妹妹姐姐大學時代的名字，回來後見她們是兩姊妹便這樣喚，沒想像力啊，喚着卻又衍生出千百個名字，算是嗜好。這是姊妹倆與我們倆共同生活的開端，然而這「我們」的故事，其實還有很多「她／他們」，經歷了很多、費了很大旳心力才成就得來。

姊妹倆曾經是很多人的心肝寶貝，在接妹走的那晚我們就知道，一雙雙不捨的眼睛，多少透著忐忑，要是這二人是壞蛋害了三妹怎辦？然而張婉雯小姐說，人與街貓的相處，就是只能為貓冀盼最好的結局。在她的著作《我跟流浪貓學到的16堂課》裹告訴了我，姊妹倆窩居這斗室前的大世界，她們的兄長及媽媽與愛她們的好人好事傷心事，我想像著那個粉紅膠藍還剩載過的其他故事，使我更明白，在香港作為愛貓人，總是淚比笑多。我也常常問自己，究竟綁架她們回來，要她們飽食終日免受風雨是否就是好生活？她們看來快樂，然而這種斯德哥爾摩症候群反應，又怎能與自由相比？或許也只能靠張小姐的朋友那番話，去調整這不平衡的心理：「其實，(這些事)做不做，你都會後悔。」是的，這也是運命交織的其中一種結果。感謝愛過三妹黑白的人們，她們除了因缺乏運動所以圓潤了點以外安好健康，是上天眷顧，請放心。也感謝所有出力愛過幫助過流浪動物的組織，更想謝的，還是這兩姊妹。

張婉雯 blog - 貓眼看世界: http://blog.yam.com/cym/article/22732495

你「叮」得快還是牠死得快

三次關於「叮一聲」的事兒。

第一次，朋友的朋友發出：「他那時衰到爆，啥也做，錢、女人、便宜有貪貪盡，無肉不歡，哈，誰知他一天忽然說吃齌就吃齌，人也全變了。」

第二次，愛人發出：「從今以後都吃素。剛才行過始創，看見一張茶樓燒鵝海報時，我眼前竟出現了那隻鵝生前的模樣，白白羽毛，胖胖的身體很可愛，『一家大細』在池溏邊 hangout，就覺悲從中來，實在不忍。」

第三次，一位演員發出，他的 blog 寫道：「冷氣把煱子冒出的蒸汽都吹過來，肉味撲鼻。Nothing superstitious，突然之間，奇怪的事發生了。余問，“你幹嗎？請個是什麽表情？”我說，“覺得臭，奇怪。”余說，“xyz@，香得不得了！“那天開始，再也沒有吃肉！」

吃素原因或明或暗，我以為素食人數緩緩上升中，可能真的上升中，但同時野味正在全球化，市場迅速增長，情況持續下去，20年就讓大猩猩絕種，怎不教人痛苦。

煉金廚房

喜歡鋼之煉金術師，喜歡「等價交換」那隱約的不生不滅禪意。一直相信一切沒增加也沒減少，而是組合與分散，是轉變，是心經也是化學。常聽說哪些食品是化學合成，就想像有甚麼食品、物品甚至你跟我不是化學合成：水是 H2O，鹽是 NaCl，呼吸著 N2、O2、Ar、CO2 及其他，啃下很多C400H620N100O120P1S1 維生，饞多了 C16H32O2 及 C14H28O2 就又胖又病。

把感性的廚房塞滿了符號實在有欠浪漫，還是痛快地去煎炒煮炸比較好。雖沒有古代錬金術師的勇敢創新，帶領世界邁向科學新紀元的偉大，然而我們卻可天天幸褔地，享受如煉金術般的烹飪過程及成果，就看那位廚房裹的女煉金術士，她冶煉出的美味，轉眼又煉成了今天的你共我，一樣偉大。

烹之煉金術，使我樂在其中。

大愛

so i see the world in the future, in which we understand that all lives are related to us, and we treat that life with great humility and respect. i see us, as well, as social creatures. and when i began to look back what is the fundamental bottom line as social creatures? i couldn't believe it because it's so hippie-dippie, but it's love, love is the force that makes us fully human.
--David Suzuki

killer babe 一直都在

懈逅了脆糖焗蘋果後，不時就要去 california pizza kitchen 進貢，那種罪孽深種的高糖高卡甜膩，不只叫人越陷越深，再加上雪糕一球送一程，黃泉路上，恐怕嘴角也含著一抺詭異甜笑。這 killer babe 是這樣的：在焗成綿軟的蘋果上鋪滿金黃色脆糖，熱辣辣配上雪糕，口感味道豐富，殺人無數。

有次為晚餐張羅，揭開我從前的瑜伽導師 Sherri 送的食譜，圖片五色繽紛，然而並未使人目盲，一篇沒有圖片的甜品食譜就這樣抓住了我的視線，細閱下，竟然就是脆糖焗蘋果，更始料不及是原來做法很簡單：

青蘋果去皮 1 個切 12 件
1 1/2 湯匙紅糖
2 茶匙麵粉
1/4茶匙玉桂粉，荳蔻粉少許，提子乾隨意，混合沾勻蘋果面，鋪在焗盤上
預熱焗爐 190C
3 湯匙麵粉
1 湯匙紅糖
1 湯匙溶牛油，搓勻成餅碎狀，撒在蘋果上，焗 40 分鐘。配雪糕。

就是這樣，自家製 killer babe 出爐，也是一種緣份，謝謝 Sherri。

天蘭緬舒

原來天蘭緬舒並非歷史悠久的甜品，名字的意思「把我提起來」卻很能道出甜品的使命。吃素之後，放棄了她，因為她需要魚膠來凝固，使我傷心了好一陣子。魚膠，又叫明膠或吉利丁，英文 gelatin/gelatine，粉或片狀，都由煮過的動物骨頭、皮膚和筋腱製成。她是一種蛋白質，為膠原蛋白的水解產物，是連接動物組織和肌腱的重要成分，美容產品標榜的骨膠原是她、小孩子喜歡的彩色啫喱、可愛的軟綿綿棉花糖、連令少女一見傾心色香味全的西餅甜點上的一抺亮麗，都是她。

自此之後，在我內心深處有個念頭，再做一次天蘭緬舒，素食的，只是一直沒認真對待此想法。直至上星期，難得高朋滿座，不如試一試吧。夏季一到，滿腦子消暑食物，西瓜涼粉啫喱大菜糕，西瓜涼粉只能買，啫喱與我無緣，唯大菜糕可取，人生總有第一次，聞說很好弄，然後呢，竟弄得一敗塗地，大菜太多糖太少，加上蛋花，做出怪味雲石二小碗。被無理打入冷宮的大菜絲，終於被 tiramisu 提起來。大菜，日／台稱寒天，英文 agar-agar，由海草製成，加水煮溶後，室溫下也能凝固，本身沒甚麼味道（所以我也不明白何以我的大菜糕會弄得如此田地），保險起見，我還加了粟粉，減少大菜成份，希望不會影響口感和味道。晚飯過後，朋友說不如吃天蘭緬舒，飽飽滯滯的我才驚醒還有她。切好後眾人看著電視吃，其中一人說好吃，背城借一，總算沒有白費。

資料來源：
http://www.ivu.org/chinese/faq/gelatine_big5.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Collagen

傷心同謀者

近來才發現，身邊許多人都曾有過或正經歷情緒問題，驚訝最看似樂天的人，一天突然對你說要尋死、思緒突然變得凌亂、情緒失控、哭泣不止，亂到一個地步，寧用死亡換來平靜，原來壓力一點點的積累，一直以來承受的挫折、失望、羞辱、傍徨，再放上最後的一根稻草之後，洪水湧出，把人淹沒。才發現，最親的人纔能傷人最深，不要輕視自己的一言一行，不要變成同謀者。

作：k

一席話

妹隨便看。
番瓜咱賣？
便宜啊，才四塊。
可以切開賣？
好，天還早，就切吧。妹要多少？
一斤，謝。
呀，剛好，盛惠四塊。要刨？
好的，謝。
不用謝。天還早，就切吧，晚了，不切。妹拿好。
謝謝。
不用謝，我謝你惠顧。天還早，就切吧，晚了，不切。
我謝你，你們不計辛勞，為大眾。
不敢當。
當之無愧，這南海番瓜，發芽至育成，漂洋至到此，你為我精準切一斤承擔風險或二斤不能賣刨皮送手上膠袋沒加稅，才四塊，我有愧。
倒也不必。
非也，瓜菜如孩兒，農夫菜販勞苦竟受忽視、層層剝削，身在其中，豈不有愧。
妹言重了，瓜菜孩兒是盤生意，辛勞成本，已計算其中，我賣你買，各不相欠。只恐有天領匯進佔，瓜菜漲價，你買的是農夫菜販的辛勞更是舖租。
這可惡私有化，是天災，是人禍怎說得清。不知高呼阻人發達者，如今心可有暗痛。
妹還是回吧，番瓜甜湯，減心內苦。
「謝謝。」
「不用謝，我謝你惠顧。天還早，就切吧，晚了，不切。」
「好的，有勞了，再會。」

番瓜甜湯

番瓜本來就甜，要是做法不同，就咸甜兩相宜。家母做菜，鮮有番瓜，有，也就是豆豉爆煮成泥，如此而已。要說真正愛上，還算近年，相逢還未算晚。最愛煮成甜湯，瓜熟成茸加粟米椰漿泡好西米一滾一焗，椰香瓜香甜膩一室載不完，街上人也勾上了五樓，再看碗中煦和如春日照，嚐一口，幸福從頭頂泉湧溢出，心神隨之流瀉。

有晚暑熱事急，酒吧中人訴說著人事與將來，希望與愛，吐了苦水又苦酒滿載。回到家，甜湯亭亭玉立，嚐一口，口裹甜，希望能減心內苦。

ecoBALLS 洗衣球

以上產品 ecoballs 係洗衣用品，佢自稱可以用 1000 次，我自己用左半年，覺得真係有用所以推介一下，約HKD400，附去漬膏，親子王國 d 女士話 PCCW 尊尚會會平 d 及送貨, CITYSUPER 有得賣，我果時 o係九龍塘 taste 買。

佢有三個球，入面裝住 d 珠仔，珠仔成份係溫和清潔劑，加上幾個球o係洗衣機裏面轉動撞擊令衣物變得柔軟，所以用左呢樣野就唔需要用洗衣粉同柔順劑，洗完 o既衫係乾淨同軟但唔會有香味。

必須注意：唔可以食 d 珠落肚，不過呢幾個球都有螺絲上實，小朋友唔會好容易開到，但要留意呢點。

HKD400 如一星期洗 3 次衫可用 6 年度，好抵，d 衫又乾淨，好用，誠意推介。

資料來源：
EcoBalls — Are they for real? Jeremy Johnstone
http://www.jeremyjohnstone.com:80/blog/archives/2008/05/11/ecoballs-are-they-for-real/

親子王國
http://forum.baby-kingdom.com/viewthread.php?tid=1701338

be kind, rewind

不知道多拉a夢有個名字叫叮噹的人，不會感到這些飄揚的黑絲帶眼熟，它們跟菲林這東西一拼煙沒在時間裏去，名字叫錄音/影帶。它們在卡式帶中，記錄下聲音及影象，它們珍貴，因為人們珍視其中的紀錄，正因為其中的珍貴，有時候人們必須將之毁去，把細薄黑帶隨意一抽，就把你曾經愛過的人的聲音與容貌從這個世上消去，只剩不可靠的備份在腦中，隨年月消磨最後在街上擦肩也忘記相認。細薄黑帶完成了它的使命，卻展開了新旅程，隨著風飄到哪兒不可知，然而它們不愛自由，總想找個靠倚去擁抱，變成黑色的禮物花球，點綴著暗淡路燈、六線行車路壆欄柵、啟德機場鐵絲網、山邊巴士站、九龍城寨漫天交織魚骨天線... 原來有很多被它們糾纏過的，都跟它們一同上路，一去不返了。

不如我也讓我珍重的黑帶，帶著我赤祼的秘密，也試試乘著風飄到天上，再回到地面尋找它所愛的燈柱，緊緊相擁直至消融於世上，埋葬我天真又傻的回憶。

46 億年之末日初戀

有日睇到新聞節目，講電動車，電動車終於有 d 聲氣喇。原來香港唔係無電動車，香港政府已擁有 12 部電動電單車，其中 6 部 Vectrix 正由警隊試用，另外6部亦會在今年3月付運。想引入電動車 o既入口商一早都申請晒，但係運輸署就係無 feed back。唔知係咪因為想試清試楚先推出，定有太多利益關係要顧慮所以遲遲唔上馬啦，但講 d「為使香港成為一個宜居城市，並提升整體競爭力，港府與一間日本車廠簽訂合作備忘，引入一架電動私家車供政府部門試用」呀咁都幾唔怕面紅。突然間諗起幾句歌：「世界未日到了麼？問我終結會如何。海天一色似赤火，烈焰中只得你我。」冰架都碎得七七八八，化石燃料就快用完，發展可再生能源又好似仲係 research 階段，又話限制多，目前為止可再生能源只係佔緊遠少過 1% 的總發電量，而家係度整場大龍鳳話推電動車，但配套設施又未見，乜都慢三拍，我地同可再生能源/電動車 o既初戀究竟幾時先可以開始呢？

資料來源：成報、太陽報、機電工程署及中華電力以上各機構網頁

hkiff 2009, 30METHING... is yet to come

想睇毒食難肥，可惜己經滿左。都好，宜家已經 21 齣，歷史比人最大 o既教訓係人永遠都唔會由歷史之中汲取到教訓，我睇你點死~~~

waking up to a cell block tango

WARNING: if you are not a cat lover or if you do not understand cat behavior, please do not watch the video below.

on a tender morning like this, music comes into my life. when mui's ready on her flower, from ipod there goes waking up, i pat her along with the beat, she takes it and likes it as usual, my performance needless to say, bad. 3.15 minutes beating's over, cell block tango kicks in for jei's turn, i started as softly as the performer tells her sad story with light scratches and gentle strokes all over her, and then strong pats on her legs when the performer was agitated and finally killed. only this song has 6 ladies to tell 6 sad stories and kill 5 guys and im exhausted at the 5th lady saying she is innocent and trying to get some rest, yet, "it's not over", says jei, follows me to my room, k says u must finish ur job, the song hasn't end yet and so we laugh. going back to jei's book shelf to finish the hack work, i call it a music therapy, with pleasure, the song lasts 7.20. isn't it unfair for mui only got 3.15? that' s just life.

after the song ends, jei doesn't follow me anymore. does she know about the duration of a song and stop asking for more than she should? or she simply had enough? i have no idea, but my love for them is the one thing im sure.

waking up - elastica
cell block tango - chicago ost

tell u in a spainish way 03

the first person who helped us to find our way was having a beer at the corner in a cloudy afternoon shade, he pointed on the metro route map right where we popped up in confusion. he was enthusiastically talking in spanish and english, showed us the way and we headed that way with thanks and doubt. it was an hour later than we assumed to arrive the guesthouse of Ana's, arrival: 1530. briefed about the facilities and being showed to our room 6, which has no window, Natalie, the daughter of Ana and the lovely hostess of the guesthouse we finally stayed in barcelona, showed up and asked if we'd like to move to another place where the room is nicer with balcony, and that's how we left Ana's. i regret we hadnt taken pics of Ana's, the place was just nice.

on the way we walked to guesthouse Rosello, i checked with Natalie if it's going to snow? the answer's no, which i already knew from the weather forcast, yet it was still a little dissapointing. but there should always be hope, our hope was in mardrid. knowing we're from hongkong, our hostess told us there was a couple also from hongkong spent their honeymoon in barcelona and stayed at her place. i asked are the hongkong people bad, to my surprise i had the truth from Natalie, she sad,"yes, oh, no i dont mean that, haha~~ i dont know, i mean they're nice." after such long flight our personal hygene was in a critical condition, im so glad that we were able to take shower right after we had some info and brief directions. before 5, another long night started.

tell u in a spainish way 02

the tourist centres everywhere in spain mean only one thing to us, the local maps. as we dont speak spainish and they dont speack much english, the spainsih staff's passion was only luke-warm(maybe it was the weather too cold). the travel planner regretted for not buying a well designed, fancy, compact barcelona map in heathrow airport that i didnt want to buy cos there wd be maps when we arrive barcelona for free, her argument was it was compact and look less like tourist thus lowering the chance of being robbed. some how, may be she was right, i dont know, my pocket was this close (1mm) to be picked in metro(mtr) when we were reading the travel guidebook. Pam tried to warn us on the plane, the pick-pocket she met was only a kid. she said it was serious in spain. i bore it in mind and was scared and when it happened, it happened. but i was lucky for they were too obvious in a spacious metro compartment they stick too close to us, alerted me to reach for my small bag, where i touched his hand covered under his blazer. that was the 1st flaw in our journey of this vast artistic wonderland.

unlike hongkong, the blocks in barcelona are very big, one block is as far as 2 to 3 blocks in hongkong, when they tell u to walk 2 blocks away, u have to prepare it's not a short walk. and the premises are also big in area, so when u're standing on no 2 of a street and is going to no 98 dont think ur gonna arrive anytime soon, especially in a rainy season like spring.

tell u in a spainish way 01

it was exciting for this was our first europe trip. luckily i have a good travel planner and we have everything ready just couple of days before we fly on a peak season like cny. the price was right, the date and days are perfect, guesthouse booked, well, partially. and, off we go~

12 hrs mid night fligh was a long long night, i couldnt eat(cos we forgot to order veggie meal), i slept terriblly and dried up and couldnt watch tv cos mine was broken, heaven knows i love tv!! drowsy as i was, arrived in heathrow and amazed for a breakfast was €8 but the boots cucumba cream to my dehydrated chapped face's rescue was just €1.6 . Pam, a lady who sat next to us on the way to heathrow and lives in barcelona for 7 years but speaks no spanish told us people in spain usually understand english, that was a relief... not for long. 3 hrs later, our own act of lost in translation started in barcelona, spain.

i hate myself for the habit of imitating how people laugh, sneeze , speak the accent or whatever sound they make attracts me, this can be embarrassing and should be avoided especially when that person was a custom officer... the officer stopped us talking spainish, i said excuse me, he just looked at the luggage, slightly patted it and let us go with an "OK", inspite of he's good-looking, we walked away and i imitated his "OK". great.

tell u in a hongkongish way

the english names of the local stores and companies are often in transliteration. english words in those name don't mean what they should, just the pronunciations matter to them. like "fat" doesn't mean their business has anything to do with selling fat, i mean, may be they do but, in this case, not what the business or the chinese character itself suppose to mean. and for the word "fat" again, it means wealth and prosperity which makes it a very popular character for commercial names.

each chinese character has its own meanings, when two or more of these cling together forming vocabularies or phrases, their meanings differ and a lot richer. like "fat" again, when group with "fuk" (fat fuk) means gaining weight, and fat here is the verb, fuk is a noun. i find it interesting for shop names or even given names for ourselves, they literally dont follow this "vocabulary rule". names always come in 2 to 3 characters, when reading the phrase, all the characters are apprehensible but when they come together it doesn't add up to a phrase, like corn starch in water, they seem to mix but they actually not. then what are they? they are 2 to 3 different wishes or expectations from the shop owner or our parents, names are the sum of blessings and love and desires. common characters for commercial names always link to good fortune, profit, grandness, excellency. for neutral choices there are reputation, swiftness, loyalty, trustworthiness. are we repressive? not in this aspect.

transliteration is an art, while chinese literature is powerfully poetic, when the two to fuse together it forms really beautiful pieces. Firenze is a delicate piece of radiant jade in cool mist, revlon is from a poem of a talented passionate writer. Kate Blanchett is a noble orchid white as snow. like any other art forms in this world, this one also changes its course to serve some purposes. in recent years, media of hong kong tend to orientate the way how mainland china media transliterate, giving up style of hongkong's own, which i think it is sad. among those new names, the one i consider irritating the most is the transliteration of Brisbane, sounds like Bris "livor mortis(in our language)".