20100223

誰能迫我,屈我欲肉育辱我


重逢多年不見親人,席上知道我吃素,就問了為何,大家文化背景不同,沒試著細說,就胡謅說為了健康,長輩們,自然是有一抹憂心,但總算相安無事。不料一夜過去換了個樣,兩位嬸嬸突然制出車輪攻勢,對我窮追猛打,說有需要就吃點肉吧,別說你爸爸見了你這樣,我們見了你這樣飲食也肉赤你,你就吃些菜,沒營養,看你多瘦。茹素這回事沒有開關制,不是喜歡 on 就 on,不喜歡就放假去 off 幾餐,我就把昨晚說過的再說一遍,說我面色不錯,健康也好。嬸見我不折,使出皇牌──我爸,嬸說他對我沒意見,就不喜歡我吃素。這麼多年了,原來他不是沒意見,只是沒說,如此時刻,他終於吐露了。聽了這話,人不折心折。我體無完膚,嬸們使出最後絕招,說世界最重要是親情,你就順著他吃點魚試著吧,這羅輯是,你堅持吃素幾近不孝,真的讓我感到委屈,我說我不是作奸犯科,我只是吃素。

說甚麼為健康、為積德都是廢話,都不是我關心的。我當然愛我爸,但是不是盲目就等於愛,愛惜草木山水小蟲禽獸能否是愛,互相尊重能否是愛?

你來自金星,我是火星人,何苦紅塵裏相交戰。

20100204

再見了

我之為我,因為有你,曾經。你我這麼親,卻原來你這樣神秘,有些事情,不要問,就不能問,尤其如今,更不能問了。

那天我不能思考,出門前還懂把電話充電,沒電了。鎖了門又折返,不能不害怕心裡那陣錐痛,如此巨大。那個時候,為甚麼在心裡浮現的竟會是,我不氣惱你了,明明我早就沒恨了,真的沒有恨,只有愧。到了,見了你,我知道你想說的是,你很愛我,你最記掛的,不是別人,是我,即使我聽不到。然後她那看不見的嘴唇張合著,那麼超現實,來乾脆地割斷我薄弱的希望,同時謝謝他朋友般的親切。

十多小時,太匆匆卻濃稠。有些事情意想不到,有些難以理解,有些太突然,有些太痛苦,有些希望,最後絕望。有些決定做了不後悔,我知道你一定也不捨得他們,我們都愛你,只希望你不怪責我為你作了這決擇,也因為這決擇,我知道有人像你記掛我般記掛你、珍愛你,無可比擬的疼愛,你是欣慰卻痛心,對嗎?

你的心跳,是否因為不捨,所以有點太快?你是有點累,睡得愈來愈沉,我能理解,你很貪睡的。醒來後到哪去遊玩了?都不要緊,開心就好。真羨慕你,那麼多人愛,以後你愛的人由我來照料,謝謝你那樣愛過我們。請你不要難過,不用不捨,你讓我更明白,今後的路是要朝著愛與貢獻走,請祝福我。希望你以後可以無牽無掛,快樂安然。

20091023

"it's all because of love."

you're a mischievous little genie
you put a veil between us

i dont tell you im in a bad shape," "
i criticize you, " "
we bumped into each other, entwine deeply into your thorn-weaved veil we bleed.
if " ", show me. you cover your wound too perfectly while im not clever a girl to see your heart aches so bad please forgive me, and let it flow naturally please.

what you feel is what i care the most,
dont hurt me, dont be fooled by that veil,
satisfy me with your honesty.
" " is the genie who cannot be let out of the bottle.

十塊錢的半年分天然精華

別說女為悅己者容,今天男子漢都去修眉。我們花多少心力去令自己漂亮,此中能量可誕生另一個宇宙。然而令人漂亮應該有三:養生、愛情與護膚,不煙不酒不熬夜的還不是穴居人?剩下的是愛情與護膚品,同樣是可遇不可求?不一定。

嘗試過不少護膚品,便宜的到昂貴的;爽的到膩的;似有還無的到刺痛的,千舤已過,已有了心得的,可喜可賀;若都是沒甚起色已經自我放逐的,不用氣餒,蘆薈是值得一試的天然選擇。

朋友說:「對暗瘡真有效,剪一小塊,往上面一貼,早上起來就好。」太神奇,也不是不信朋友,但就是覺得不能入信,蘆薈被一扔拋諸腦後。忽然一天,又覺一試無妨,卻又不知往哪去買,買豆腐時順道問問嬸嬸:「你用來塗臉嗎?我女兒也塗呀,她生痤瘡呀,你知道痤瘡嗎?很大的那種暗瘡呢,塗了真好,很管用的呀。你很滑溜沒暗瘡呀,你去那邊買吧。」未買都即賺。

買回來了,又想起一段往事。一次跟客人吃飯,她說試著吃蘆薈減肥,買了回來要把它去皮,一搞搞到夜半二時:「很難刨呀,刨到我死,真淒涼呀。」今次換我了:


最初也沒用蒜茸夾夾汁,就是起了肉放在雪櫃,那麼多,後來當然是浪費了,之後才開始放進冰格。說起來,結冰後再劈也不太方便,可能可以試試一買回來就全條做成汁,再放冰格結冰,用時才拿一個冰粒出來,更有效率。

睇相佬呃你十年八年,蘆薈,十塊錢,用半年,無添加 100% 天然,而且真正有效,也可試試自己種,怡情綠化減肥護膚,一物多用,還有甚麼比她更物美價廉?



20091019

點

要感到存在,不被重視,是否不存在?
沒有,不是沒有,是一時沒想起。你存在。我忘記。
半杯水。就這樣錯開了,又錯開。

我以為我明白你。我以為你明白我。
我表達的,不是你所感受的,要再組織。
痛病工作錯開睡眠越過生活,不能組織。
擱著,擱置,擱淺,如鯨。

---

感到被愛,卻有寂寞存在。
何故?
未知時異獸已伺機襲來。
全部?
全部。
今天。
未知時異獸已伺機襲來,
半杯水,鯨魚能不能不擱淺?

20090831

姊妹倆


不經不覺,妹妹姐姐被禁室培育了已經三年多,首先是妹 2006 年 3 月到來,沒想到,一個月後姐也來了。猶記得妹來的那晚,驚鴻一瞥那小巧可愛面相,搭配上肥碩圓滾的身體(雖然事隔多年,每每回想仍然無減強烈對比所形成之震撼),七嘴八舌一輪道謝道別,便滿的士是「勾嗚」地回家去了,姐也是這樣回來的,我卻忘了帶姐姐來的,是不是帶妹妹的那個粉紅膠藍。

三妹黑白是妹妹姐姐大學時代的名字,回來後見她們是兩姊妹便這樣喚,沒想像力啊,喚着卻又衍生出千百個名字,算是嗜好。這是姊妹倆與我們倆共同生活的開端,然而這「我們」的故事,其實還有很多「她/他們」,經歷了很多、費了很大旳心力才成就得來。

姊妹倆曾經是很多人的心肝寶貝,在接妹走的那晚我們就知道,一雙雙不捨的眼睛,多少透著忐忑,要是這二人是壞蛋害了三妹怎辦?然而張婉雯小姐說,人與街貓的相處,就是只能為貓冀盼最好的結局。在她的著作《我跟流浪貓學到的16堂課》裹告訴了我,姊妹倆窩居這斗室前的大世界,她們的兄長及媽媽與愛她們的好人好事傷心事,我想像著那個粉紅膠藍還剩載過的其他故事,使我更明白,在香港作為愛貓人,總是淚比笑多。我也常常問自己,究竟綁架她們回來,要她們飽食終日免受風雨是否就是好生活?她們看來快樂,然而這種斯德哥爾摩症候群反應,又怎能與自由相比?或許也只能靠張小姐的朋友那番話,去調整這不平衡的心理:「其實,(這些事)做不做,你都會後悔。」是的,這也是運命交織的其中一種結果。感謝愛過三妹黑白的人們,她們除了因缺乏運動所以圓潤了點以外安好健康,是上天眷顧,請放心。也感謝所有出力愛過幫助過流浪動物的組織,更想謝的,還是這兩姊妹。

張婉雯 blog - 貓眼看世界: http://blog.yam.com/cym/article/22732495

20090822

你「叮」得快還是牠死得快


三次關於「叮一聲」的事兒。

第一次,朋友的朋友發出:「他那時衰到爆,啥也做,錢、女人、便宜有貪貪盡,無肉不歡,哈,誰知他一天忽然說吃齌就吃齌,人也全變了。」

第二次,愛人發出:「從今以後都吃素。剛才行過始創,看見一張茶樓燒鵝海報時,我眼前竟出現了那隻鵝生前的模樣,白白羽毛,胖胖的身體很可愛,『一家大細』在池溏邊 hangout,就覺悲從中來,實在不忍。」

第三次,一位演員發出,他的 blog 寫道:「冷氣把煱子冒出的蒸汽都吹過來,肉味撲鼻。Nothing superstitious,突然之間,奇怪的事發生了。余問,“你幹嗎?請個是什麽表情?”我說,“覺得臭,奇怪。”余說,“xyz@,香得不得了!“那天開始,再也沒有吃肉!」

吃素原因或明或暗,我以為素食人數緩緩上升中,可能真的上升中,但同時野味正在全球化,市場迅速增長,情況持續下去,20年就讓大猩猩絕種,怎不教人痛苦。

煉金廚房

喜歡鋼之煉金術師,喜歡「等價交換」那隱約的不生不滅禪意。一直相信一切沒增加也沒減少,而是組合與分散,是轉變,是心經也是化學。常聽說哪些食品是化學合成,就想像有甚麼食品、物品甚至你跟我不是化學合成:水是 H2O,鹽是 NaCl,呼吸著 N2、O2、Ar、CO2 及其他,啃下很多C400H620N100O120P1S1 維生,饞多了 C16H32O2 及 C14H28O2 就又胖又病。

把感性的廚房塞滿了符號實在有欠浪漫,還是痛快地去煎炒煮炸比較好。雖沒有古代錬金術師的勇敢創新,帶領世界邁向科學新紀元的偉大,然而我們卻可天天幸褔地,享受如煉金術般的烹飪過程及成果,就看那位廚房裹的女煉金術士,她冶煉出的美味,轉眼又煉成了今天的你共我,一樣偉大。

烹之煉金術,使我樂在其中。

20090814

大愛

so i see the world in the future, in which we understand that all lives are related to us, and we treat that life with great humility and respect. i see us, as well, as social creatures. and when i began to look back what is the fundamental bottom line as social creatures? i couldn't believe it because it's so hippie-dippie, but it's love, love is the force that makes us fully human.
--David Suzuki

20090813

killer babe 一直都在

懈逅了脆糖焗蘋果後,不時就要去 california pizza kitchen 進貢,那種罪孽深種的高糖高卡甜膩,不只叫人越陷越深,再加上雪糕一球送一程,黃泉路上,恐怕嘴角也含著一抺詭異甜笑。這 killer babe 是這樣的:在焗成綿軟的蘋果上鋪滿金黃色脆糖,熱辣辣配上雪糕,口感味道豐富,殺人無數。

有次為晚餐張羅,揭開我從前的瑜伽導師 Sherri 送的食譜,圖片五色繽紛,然而並未使人目盲,一篇沒有圖片的甜品食譜就這樣抓住了我的視線,細閱下,竟然就是脆糖焗蘋果,更始料不及是原來做法很簡單:

青蘋果去皮 1 個切 12 件
1 1/2 湯匙紅糖
2 茶匙麵粉
1/4茶匙玉桂粉,荳蔻粉少許,提子乾隨意,混合沾勻蘋果面,鋪在焗盤上
預熱焗爐 190C
3 湯匙麵粉
1 湯匙紅糖
1 湯匙溶牛油,搓勻成餅碎狀,撒在蘋果上,焗 40 分鐘。配雪糕。

就是這樣,自家製 killer babe 出爐,也是一種緣份,謝謝 Sherri。

天蘭緬舒


原來天蘭緬舒並非歷史悠久的甜品,名字的意思「把我提起來」卻很能道出甜品的使命。吃素之後,放棄了她,因為她需要魚膠來凝固,使我傷心了好一陣子。魚膠,又叫明膠或吉利丁,英文 gelatin/gelatine,粉或片狀,都由煮過的動物骨頭、皮膚和筋腱製成。她是一種蛋白質,為膠原蛋白的水解產物,是連接動物組織和肌腱的重要成分,美容產品標榜的骨膠原是她、小孩子喜歡的彩色啫喱、可愛的軟綿綿棉花糖、連令少女一見傾心色香味全的西餅甜點上的一抺亮麗,都是她。

自此之後,在我內心深處有個念頭,再做一次天蘭緬舒,素食的,只是一直沒認真對待此想法。直至上星期,難得高朋滿座,不如試一試吧。夏季一到,滿腦子消暑食物,西瓜涼粉啫喱大菜糕,西瓜涼粉只能買,啫喱與我無緣,唯大菜糕可取,人生總有第一次,聞說很好弄,然後呢,竟弄得一敗塗地,大菜太多糖太少,加上蛋花,做出怪味雲石二小碗。被無理打入冷宮的大菜絲,終於被 tiramisu 提起來。大菜,日/台稱寒天,英文 agar-agar,由海草製成,加水煮溶後,室溫下也能凝固,本身沒甚麼味道(所以我也不明白何以我的大菜糕會弄得如此田地),保險起見,我還加了粟粉,減少大菜成份,希望不會影響口感和味道。晚飯過後,朋友說不如吃天蘭緬舒,飽飽滯滯的我才驚醒還有她。切好後眾人看著電視吃,其中一人說好吃,背城借一,總算沒有白費。

資料來源:
http://www.ivu.org/chinese/faq/gelatine_big5.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Collagen

20090802

傷心同謀者

近來才發現,身邊許多人都曾有過或正經歷情緒問題,驚訝最看似樂天的人,一天突然對你說要尋死、思緒突然變得凌亂、情緒失控、哭泣不止,亂到一個地步,寧用死亡換來平靜,原來壓力一點點的積累,一直以來承受的挫折、失望、羞辱、傍徨,再放上最後的一根稻草之後,洪水湧出,把人淹沒。才發現,最親的人纔能傷人最深,不要輕視自己的一言一行,不要變成同謀者。

作:k

一席話

妹隨便看。
番瓜咱賣?
便宜啊,才四塊。
可以切開賣?
好,天還早,就切吧。妹要多少?
一斤,謝。
呀,剛好,盛惠四塊。要刨?
好的,謝。
不用謝。天還早,就切吧,晚了,不切。妹拿好。
謝謝。
不用謝,我謝你惠顧。天還早,就切吧,晚了,不切。
我謝你,你們不計辛勞,為大眾。
不敢當。
當之無愧,這南海番瓜,發芽至育成,漂洋至到此,你為我精準切一斤承擔風險或二斤不能賣刨皮送手上膠袋沒加稅,才四塊,我有愧。
倒也不必。
非也,瓜菜如孩兒,農夫菜販勞苦竟受忽視、層層剝削,身在其中,豈不有愧。
妹言重了,瓜菜孩兒是盤生意,辛勞成本,已計算其中,我賣你買,各不相欠。只恐有天領匯進佔,瓜菜漲價,你買的是農夫菜販的辛勞更是舖租。
這可惡私有化,是天災,是人禍怎說得清。不知高呼阻人發達者,如今心可有暗痛。
妹還是回吧,番瓜甜湯,減心內苦。
「謝謝。」
「不用謝,我謝你惠顧。天還早,就切吧,晚了,不切。」
「好的,有勞了,再會。」

番瓜甜湯

番瓜本來就甜,要是做法不同,就咸甜兩相宜。家母做菜,鮮有番瓜,有,也就是豆豉爆煮成泥,如此而已。要說真正愛上,還算近年,相逢還未算晚。最愛煮成甜湯,瓜熟成茸加粟米椰漿泡好西米一滾一焗,椰香瓜香甜膩一室載不完,街上人也勾上了五樓,再看碗中煦和如春日照,嚐一口,幸福從頭頂泉湧溢出,心神隨之流瀉。

有晚暑熱事急,酒吧中人訴說著人事與將來,希望與愛,吐了苦水又苦酒滿載。回到家,甜湯亭亭玉立,嚐一口,口裹甜,希望能減心內苦。

20090326

ecoBALLS 洗衣球

以上產品 ecoballs 係洗衣用品,佢自稱可以用 1000 次,我自己用左半年,覺得真係有用所以推介一下,約HKD400,附去漬膏,親子王國 d 女士話 PCCW 尊尚會會平 d 及送貨, CITYSUPER 有得賣,我果時 o係九龍塘 taste 買。

佢有三個球,入面裝住 d 珠仔,珠仔成份係溫和清潔劑,加上幾個球o係洗衣機裏面轉動撞擊令衣物變得柔軟,所以用左呢樣野就唔需要用洗衣粉同柔順劑,洗完 o既衫係乾淨同軟但唔會有香味。

必須注意:唔可以食 d 珠落肚,不過呢幾個球都有螺絲上實,小朋友唔會好容易開到,但要留意呢點。

HKD400 如一星期洗 3 次衫可用 6 年度,好抵,d 衫又乾淨,好用,誠意推介。

資料來源:
EcoBalls — Are they for real? Jeremy Johnstone
http://www.jeremyjohnstone.com:80/blog/archives/2008/05/11/ecoballs-are-they-for-real/

親子王國
http://forum.baby-kingdom.com/viewthread.php?tid=1701338

20090316

be kind, rewind

不知道多拉a夢有個名字叫叮噹的人,不會感到這些飄揚的黑絲帶眼熟,它們跟菲林這東西一拼煙沒在時間裏去,名字叫錄音/影帶。它們在卡式帶中,記錄下聲音及影象,它們珍貴,因為人們珍視其中的紀錄,正因為其中的珍貴,有時候人們必須將之毁去,把細薄黑帶隨意一抽,就把你曾經愛過的人的聲音與容貌從這個世上消去,只剩不可靠的備份在腦中,隨年月消磨最後在街上擦肩也忘記相認。細薄黑帶完成了它的使命,卻展開了新旅程,隨著風飄到哪兒不可知,然而它們不愛自由,總想找個靠倚去擁抱,變成黑色的禮物花球,點綴著暗淡路燈、六線行車路壆欄柵、啟德機場鐵絲網、山邊巴士站、九龍城寨漫天交織魚骨天線... 原來有很多被它們糾纏過的,都跟它們一同上路,一去不返了。


不如我也讓我珍重的黑帶,帶著我赤祼的秘密,也試試乘著風飄到天上,再回到地面尋找它所愛的燈柱,緊緊相擁直至消融於世上,埋葬我天真又傻的回憶。

20090310

46 億年之末日初戀

有日睇到新聞節目,講電動車,電動車終於有 d 聲氣喇。原來香港唔係無電動車,香港政府已擁有 12 部電動電單車,其中 6 部 Vectrix 正由警隊試用,另外6部亦會在今年3月付運。想引入電動車 o既入口商一早都申請晒,但係運輸署就係無 feed back。唔知係咪因為想試清試楚先推出,定有太多利益關係要顧慮所以遲遲唔上馬啦,但講 d「為使香港成為一個宜居城市,並提升整體競爭力,港府與一間日本車廠簽訂合作備忘,引入一架電動私家車供政府部門試用」呀咁都幾唔怕面紅。突然間諗起幾句歌:「世界未日到了麼?問我終結會如何。海天一色似赤火,烈焰中只得你我。」冰架都碎得七七八八,化石燃料就快用完,發展可再生能源又好似仲係 research 階段,又話限制多,目前為止可再生能源只係佔緊遠少過 1% 的總發電量,而家係度整場大龍鳳話推電動車,但配套設施又未見,乜都慢三拍,我地同可再生能源/電動車 o既初戀究竟幾時先可以開始呢?

資料來源:成報、太陽報、機電工程署及中華電力以上各機構網頁

20090303

hkiff 2009, 30METHING... is yet to come

想睇毒食難肥,可惜己經滿左。都好,宜家已經 21 齣,歷史比人最大 o既教訓係人永遠都唔會由歷史之中汲取到教訓,我睇你點死~~~

20090301

waking up to a cell block tango

WARNING: if you are not a cat lover or if you do not understand cat behavior, please do not watch the video below.




on a tender morning like this, music comes into my life. when mui's ready on her flower, from ipod there goes waking up, i pat her along with the beat, she takes it and likes it as usual, my performance needless to say, bad. 3.15 minutes beating's over, cell block tango kicks in for jei's turn, i started as softly as the performer tells her sad story with light scratches and gentle strokes all over her, and then strong pats on her legs when the performer was agitated and finally killed. only this song has 6 ladies to tell 6 sad stories and kill 5 guys and im exhausted at the 5th lady saying she is innocent and trying to get some rest, yet, "it's not over", says jei, follows me to my room, k says u must finish ur job, the song hasn't end yet and so we laugh. going back to jei's book shelf to finish the hack work, i call it a music therapy, with pleasure, the song lasts 7.20. isn't it unfair for mui only got 3.15? that' s just life.

after the song ends, jei doesn't follow me anymore. does she know about the duration of a song and stop asking for more than she should? or she simply had enough? i have no idea, but my love for them is the one thing im sure.

waking up - elastica
cell block tango - chicago ost

20090223

tell u in a spainish way 03

the first person who helped us to find our way was having a beer at the corner in a cloudy afternoon shade, he pointed on the metro route map right where we popped up in confusion. he was enthusiastically talking in spanish and english, showed us the way and we headed that way with thanks and doubt. it was an hour later than we assumed to arrive the guesthouse of Ana's, arrival: 1530. briefed about the facilities and being showed to our room 6, which has no window, Natalie, the daughter of Ana and the lovely hostess of the guesthouse we finally stayed in barcelona, showed up and asked if we'd like to move to another place where the room is nicer with balcony, and that's how we left Ana's. i regret we hadnt taken pics of Ana's, the place was just nice.

on the way we walked to guesthouse Rosello, i checked with Natalie if it's going to snow? the answer's no, which i already knew from the weather forcast, yet it was still a little dissapointing. but there should always be hope, our hope was in mardrid. knowing we're from hongkong, our hostess told us there was a couple also from hongkong spent their honeymoon in barcelona and stayed at her place. i asked are the hongkong people bad, to my surprise i had the truth from Natalie, she sad,"yes, oh, no i dont mean that, haha~~ i dont know, i mean they're nice." after such long flight our personal hygene was in a critical condition, im so glad that we were able to take shower right after we had some info and brief directions. before 5, another long night started.

tell u in a spainish way 02

the tourist centres everywhere in spain mean only one thing to us, the local maps. as we dont speak spainish and they dont speack much english, the spainsih staff's passion was only luke-warm(maybe it was the weather too cold). the travel planner regretted for not buying a well designed, fancy, compact barcelona map in heathrow airport that i didnt want to buy cos there wd be maps when we arrive barcelona for free, her argument was it was compact and look less like tourist thus lowering the chance of being robbed. some how, may be she was right, i dont know, my pocket was this close (1mm) to be picked in metro(mtr) when we were reading the travel guidebook. Pam tried to warn us on the plane, the pick-pocket she met was only a kid. she said it was serious in spain. i bore it in mind and was scared and when it happened, it happened. but i was lucky for they were too obvious in a spacious metro compartment they stick too close to us, alerted me to reach for my small bag, where i touched his hand covered under his blazer. that was the 1st flaw in our journey of this vast artistic wonderland.

unlike hongkong, the blocks in barcelona are very big, one block is as far as 2 to 3 blocks in hongkong, when they tell u to walk 2 blocks away, u have to prepare it's not a short walk. and the premises are also big in area, so when u're standing on no 2 of a street and is going to no 98 dont think ur gonna arrive anytime soon, especially in a rainy season like spring.

tell u in a spainish way 01

it was exciting for this was our first europe trip. luckily i have a good travel planner and we have everything ready just couple of days before we fly on a peak season like cny. the price was right, the date and days are perfect, guesthouse booked, well, partially. and, off we go~

12 hrs mid night fligh was a long long night, i couldnt eat(cos we forgot to order veggie meal), i slept terriblly and dried up and couldnt watch tv cos mine was broken, heaven knows i love tv!! drowsy as i was, arrived in heathrow and amazed for a breakfast was €8 but the boots cucumba cream to my dehydrated chapped face's rescue was just €1.6 . Pam, a lady who sat next to us on the way to heathrow and lives in barcelona for 7 years but speaks no spanish told us people in spain usually understand english, that was a relief... not for long. 3 hrs later, our own act of lost in translation started in barcelona, spain.

i hate myself for the habit of imitating how people laugh, sneeze , speak the accent or whatever sound they make attracts me, this can be embarrassing and should be avoided especially when that person was a custom officer... the officer stopped us talking spainish, i said excuse me, he just looked at the luggage, slightly patted it and let us go with an "OK", inspite of he's good-looking, we walked away and i imitated his "OK". great.

20090220

tell u in a hongkongish way

the english names of the local stores and companies are often in transliteration. english words in those name don't mean what they should, just the pronunciations matter to them. like "fat" doesn't mean their business has anything to do with selling fat, i mean, may be they do but, in this case, not what the business or the chinese character itself suppose to mean. and for the word "fat" again, it means wealth and prosperity which makes it a very popular character for commercial names.

each chinese character has its own meanings, when two or more of these cling together forming vocabularies or phrases, their meanings differ and a lot richer. like "fat" again, when group with "fuk" (fat fuk) means gaining weight, and fat here is the verb, fuk is a noun. i find it interesting for shop names or even given names for ourselves, they literally dont follow this "vocabulary rule". names always come in 2 to 3 characters, when reading the phrase, all the characters are apprehensible but when they come together it doesn't add up to a phrase, like corn starch in water, they seem to mix but they actually not. then what are they? they are 2 to 3 different wishes or expectations from the shop owner or our parents, names are the sum of blessings and love and desires. common characters for commercial names always link to good fortune, profit, grandness, excellency. for neutral choices there are reputation, swiftness, loyalty, trustworthiness. are we repressive? not in this aspect.

transliteration is an art, while chinese literature is powerfully poetic, when the two to fuse together it forms really beautiful pieces. Firenze is a delicate piece of radiant jade in cool mist, revlon is from a poem of a talented passionate writer. Kate Blanchett is a noble orchid white as snow. like any other art forms in this world, this one also changes its course to serve some purposes. in recent years, media of hong kong tend to orientate the way how mainland china media transliterate, giving up style of hongkong's own, which i think it is sad. among those new names, the one i consider irritating the most is the transliteration of Brisbane, sounds like Bris "livor mortis(in our language)".

20081222

單車

「對!所以單車是 distance multiplier 而非 energy multiplier。」老師如是回應同學的提問,至於問題... 不要緊吧。小時候我經常與別的街童一起踏單車,於那個還有田和夏季會氾濫的小鄉村裏馳騁縱橫,從早到晚,一天下來脾隙是很痛的。

凝秀堂──在有個秀麗如斯的名字的空地上,爸爸教我學會踏單車,後來亦在這裏,單車為我的眉骨及膝蓋上凝聚出秀麗的疤痕。上中學以後已很少踏單車,偶然相約或生或熟的人兒踏上那條單車路,然後悠然暢快的感覺又回來了。上次踏單車又是很久以前了,但無論多久沒坐上過這機械上,也不會忘了該如何讓它向前往。懂與未懂是那麼微妙,只這麼一瞬,然後就是一輩子的開竅。

有些事情,其實我們都知道,但並未真正掌握它的意義,也許就是等那一瞬,微妙地連繫起來,然後 horizon 也會像踏單車一樣 multiply 起來,所以花點 energy 也無妨。

所以不如遲一下,我來教你踏單車。

20081105

"be" 半杯水


在地鐵站(現稱港鐵,堅持叫她地鐵,表示某種疏離)瞟見這廣告,第一次見看不到 "be" 以後的字母,便想像何以接續:

a) beachy?
b) bearable?
c) bedridden?
d) beetle-browed?
e) beggars-can-not-be-choosers-like?

我當初的想像是 beautiful,然後是 better,很窩囊吧 haha,誰叫她是 3M 的廣告呢?

再看看以上 a~e 的取態,便知我那半杯水是「只得」半杯而非「還有」半杯。

你的 "be" 後面是甚麼?


20081020

你帶淚帶淚暗悲傷


最近所讀的書,讓我感覺像偷窺,透過兩扇半掩的窗,順著作者的意願,收看她/他的生活細節,感受她們的悲傷如同親歷自己的掙扎。我也像其中一位的自序中說,不能不把你們想像成朋友,雖然我們的距離並沒想像中遠。有了 blog,世界開遍了窗。我也邀請你乘我不備來偷窺我,(即使我們相識)來把我們想像成朋友,感覺安全。

alien masters


常常想那些來自外太空、恃可愛以臣服奴隸們如我輩的可惡生物——貓,深諳人語卻只選擇性去聽,火光的傻瓜映在貓晶亮滾圓的眼睛裹很愜意。那些眼睛裹的靈魂,也有著七情六慾吧,如犯上七宗罪都得下地獄,那每當姐仔黏膩著我,妹豬的眼神足以印證她已經手持一張印上「嫉妒」的地獄(貓科)通行証。至於姐仔之深藏不露,我們從未見過她還擊妹豬對她的襲擊,但妹豬的右額角常常出現一道血痕,想必不是妹自裁的結果,姐實在是個徹頭徹尾的美麗左撇子狠角色。有人認為 agyness deyn "cute and gorgeous at the same time",然而這形容根本是屬於貓的。

20080806

pseudo español blog - isla del mar

a veces se siente como im una isla del mar, rodeado de nada más que la brisa en silencio, tan aislado y nadie está aquí.

20080731

yellow bastard in sin city


she was told to have bright yellow skin and blueish-green eyes, living in a city as u do, sucks the big time.

she was offered a mirror, for her observation of her own condition

she was asked, "how come ur humidity is so high?"

she was scratched, squeezed, pricked, vacuumed and most of the time, she was scared

she was told to drink a glass of milk, twice a day

she is still in a puzzle, should she pay another visit for being vacuumed again?

20080616

pseudo 日本語のブログ - 內爆女

彼女の体では故障の原子炉を、誘発される非常に容易に爆発する彼女の物で胸腔を持っている。 kaboom。 それから新しいのようによい再度彼女。

20080607

兩個廣場,兩個值的笑的時代



這是一九八九年六月的中國。這裹面有訴求,更有英雄,永遠難以忘記。


這是二OO八年六月的香港。這裹面有霸權,空間上霸佔,還妄想思想上箝制。


六 月四日晚上,四萬八人集會後出現了一個奇異狀況:眾人拿出一元二元五元十元硬幣,一個個蹲著,刮著地上蠟燭掉下的淚,沒效率但自律,然後身後突然響起: 「用這個更快捷點。」二話不說兩塊木板剷過來幫忙清理,五分鐘的工夫 10 秒完成,唯有急忙道謝就離去。眾人的克己坦然真是令我很感動。




20080602

sunday special - the stories untold

all 3 pages

20080522

築印 - 妹仔 sharp 過主人婆




一見到個樽已經勁想買套卡,個 ad 咁靚無死啦,點知....

scroll 落去,吓... 喎... 嘩... 車....

望到個天價,再望望果幾張好似無化粧 o既十日無訓覺 o既我 o既卡... 唔駛喇唔該。

之後先再望到到有平裝版,$123,我以為一套,原來係一張,一套我都仲猶豫緊,一張?唔駛喇唔該。

講真如果 d 卡個 graphic 真係個樽,我會掙扎得好痛苦,但宜家... 唔會喇該煨~

20080511

11052008 mother's day - after

i rang home, dad picked up, started with small talks, and then mom's turn,

"happy mother's day, are u going to yam cha? it's gonna to rain."
"thanks, sure we'll go, we go even when typhoon strikes. u wanna join?"
"nope."
"oh... so where are u going today?"
"just going places."
"oh..."
"..."
"..."
"why is all that silence?"
"im just listening to u."
"haha~~~ dogb, dogb~~~"
"dogb? what are u talking about?"

dad spotted me, mom showed up happily. and i made this with them. to my surprise dad liked it haha and they love the idea of cooking for them. i always thought dad wouldnt like to eat vegan dishes so i havent tried it earlier, so... he's changed or just trying to be polite to his daughter.

about the dish, dad intervened a lot, mom hovered around to bring me stuff. they teached me how to cook. cooking could be a great family activity. guess we all are happy today.


11052008 mother's day - before

0900 weather's blue

im on my way to my parent's, on a train. what a pity the weather's quite depressing. mom doesnt know im going to see her, hopefully she'll be available, or i'll have to visit a closed door with doggies x3 and kitties x3 behind the mesh. with a funny expression, probably like twitching of some sort, a smile maybe, i bought vegetables, wondering to prepare a meal for my parents, imagining how my dad would respond to the dish he probably wont like but trying to be polite to his daughter and eat but can barely swallow haha. fun enough just to imagin. may be it's all that fun to imagine, not the real thing.

im just trying (not) to fit in

there are times and places we dont belong. i thought i wanted to fit in but i never tried. i curl up inside my little pit. staying out the everything, mourning i couldnt fit in.

20080416

forbiden lovers

我很後悔,那刻因為人來人往怕突兀,沒為你們拍下照片。雖然你們註定沒可能成為一對,但在我的穿鑿附會下,還可成為不失美麗的一場邂逅。回頭再見,你倆經已魂斷於殘酷還是意外,獨剩一人懊悔不已。

20080329

怪物

有些事情當你以為自己知道,即使那是醜惡,你以為你知道,當要赤裸裸去面對時,那震憾仍是使你無以名狀。





我們控制、改造、幽禁、催谷、憎恨、虐待、虐殺,面目猙獰,我們是怪物。我是怪物。

我的心揪作一團,但我能做的只是說聲對不起。


.

20080315

bb

a journey like elyah's
swift and bright
caught gently upwards in the chariot of all blazing light
with death untasted and the grave unknown

14032008

20080312

i (kinda) love myself

have u ever wanted to eat just for later throwing it back up? have u ever wonder ur ideal weight should be 65lbs? have u ever fallen into cycles of binge/purge so much that u became an expert of throwing up and made a homepage to show people ur tips and tricks of how to make throw up easier than ever? have u ever hated urself so much that u rather cut urself good just for a second of silence?

that isnt me.

i realize i love myself more than i thought after i know what some people do to themselves for reasons painful to understand.

20080226

hkiff 2008

1. 故城風雪行
放映編號: 25SM3E1

2. 生死分流
放映編號: 23SP3E1

3. 假面
放映編號: 03SM5E2X

4. 怕黑怪談
放映編號: 04CT4M1

5. 幫幫我愛神
放映編號: 22KG3M2

6. 笨蛋?野味?蘑菇湯
放映編號: 03UL4E2

7. 瑪雅黛倫五部作品
放映編號: 30SP3M1

8. o拿喳城
放映編號: 21CT3E2

9. 二度處女Go Go Go
放映編號: 11SM4E1X

10. 白夜孤星
放映編號: 26UQ3E2

11. 倫敦來客
放映編號: 02KG4E2

12. 夜半女敲門
放映編號: 05CT4E2

13. 闔家怪
放映編號: 24SM3E1

14. 笑看風雲過
放映編號: 01UL4E2

15. 林布蘭的夜巡
放映編號: 29CT3M3

16. 收視大騎劫
放映編號: 24KG3M2

17. 夜車
放映編號: 28SM3E2

18. 花渡
放映編號: 23KG3M1

20080219

「有人叫你拍裸照,記得要大聲叫唔好同著雨衣保護自己」

裸照事件至今事發近一個月,警察抓了人,照片照樣推陳出新,網民也上了街,阿嬌發言,鍾生獲釋,edc 回港無期。由最初震憾至現在天天猜想何時得了,如何得了。其實我對相中所有人都沒喜惡,但猶記得最初看到照片,只覺張柏芝驚艷,掙扎是否把 msn 傳給朋友,自感已侵犯了她,這樣不就是進一步侵犯她?最後還是打住了。聞說隔天那連結已斷。這個精彩正月,讓我們對道德作了前所未有的深入思考及討論,全球公審相中人何罪之有:

教壞小孩:孩子不是想像中的懵懂,而且世上還有更多的對錯要分辨,這不是為人父母者應教導子女的事情嗎?要擔心孩子,不如用那些時間去關心和教育他們。

淫蕩:何謂淫蕩?做愛就是淫蕩?不。明星做愛就是淫蕩?是...不,做愛不淫蕩,做愛但拍照就淫蕩。是嗎?哦...真是眼不見為乾淨,只要不讓人看見,就算做任何事都沒問題。還是誰說三十歲前要守住貞操,把我們都養成了要所有明星都要是處男處女的寶寶,一旦發現口味不對就腸胃不適呻吟不止。

虛偽:有天乍見文字「事件實是揭露虛偽」,還沒詳閱內文時,還以為說的是一邊拼命收集照片飽眼福,一邊罵相中人快去死的人,原來不。才發現原來真有人會這麼天真這麼傻,相信藝人是沒有七情六慾、潔白如小天使一般。如果虛偽就得去死,恐怕地上都剩不下多少人。

如果她真有錯,錯在她點了頭拍了照而已。

不禁又想起曾聞說從前的電影畫報中,明星真如天上星宿,可望而不可即,女的個個天仙下凡,男的位位風度翩翩。為何今天的明星卻只是活在顯微鏡下,被脫下了尊嚴再剖開隱私,給人又聞又舔又要詛咒之後卻又暗爽不已的可憐蟲。

這事件也讓我對娛樂新聞有了新感受,原來那些被否認成穿鑿附會的緋聞也不是很假。看了今天娛樂版,我為她高興。《破事兒》大頭阿慧一段寫生命微小而無常,雖然微小,然而身在其中又如歷驚濤駭浪。如果這無常撮合了阿慧和飛鷹,也願它撮合演這兩個角色的演員,和讓他們的結局一樣美滿。

20080116

the core

the soil's contaminated, anything grows on it destined to be poisoned, dead or mutates to adapt, to become monsters as if u can see the invisible writhing of it all. to put it out of its misery, let's burn it all down.


tumbling down
tumbling down
dont know when will we meet again

tumbling down
tumbling down
dont know when will we meet again

20080108

生活小故事 - 沒有歌,怎敢說心事...



m1:我最近鐘意左個人,不過佢有男朋友架喇。
m2:我最近鐘意左個人,不過佢,原來有女朋友。
m3:我最近鐘意左個人,不過佢,有老公仲有個女朋友。
m4:我最近鐘意左個人,不過佢同個未婚妻下個月就結緍。
m3:我最近鐘意左個人,不過我下個月就同我未婚妻結婚...
m2:我最近鐘意左個人,不過我已經有老婆...
m1:我最近鐘意左個人,不過我未試過未試過鐘意女人...

20071225

凱撒沙律汁

扮表代學人寫左個凱撒沙律汁做法,點知甩頭甩骨 re 完又 re,發現原來仲係漏左野未寫,不如 o係度完完整整寫多次哈哈

1. parmesan, 磨粉/切碎
2. 蒜蓉,生熟隨意,熟o既一定要有,生o既可以唔落,如果落都唔可以落太多,因為生o既有辛辣味
3. 乾蔥,炒熟微焦
4. 白醋
5. 鹽,建議用海鹽,好味~
6. 糖
7. 多功能香草mix
8. 黑椒碎

份量參考
1、2. 大概 4 粒蒜頭咁大體樍 o既 pamesan 配 1 1/2 粒蒜頭炒成 o既蒜蓉
3. 乾蔥一個
4. 白醋 3 湯匙,唔駛驚,到食 o既候要加水架嘛,所以做o既時候要落多 d 醋
5. 海鹽 1 湯匙
6. 糖 1 湯匙
其實份量無所謂 o既,鐘意邊樣味濃 d 咪落多 d 囉,唔會爆炸 o既

做法
1. 將 1~6 全部用研磨碗手磨,或用機磨,完。
2. 以上份量做出厘 o既醬大概夠用落 3 棵 romaine hearts。將整好 o既醬用細保鮮盒入好雪住,到食o既時候先勺一兩匙出厘加少少水,灑香草同黑椒,淋上 romaine hearts 上面撈勻,最後加 parmesan 片,正!

20071215

healing grins

some say just try making smiling faces, lifting the corners of ur mouth for often and long enough, u'll start to feel chirpy. dont know if this works, i tried something else though, very much like the making smiling faces thing. i told a friend that i was feeling chirpy the day i felt exactly opposite and really wanted to meet him. he said he's happy to know that i was chirpy and was a disgrace for not able to meet me when i was in such good mood. i was just like yea yea ok no pro and bye. for a second there, i was almost convinced that it wasnt feeling that bad in that sunny sat afternoon.

i used to want friends to ease my sadness by sharing the feeling but it was wrong. it really doesnt help to say things so depress and empty. sadness doesnt share it spreads, like disease. i'd rather seal it in, and learned heals come from within, i cant count on anyone except myself. and it isnt that bad to know that. it helps me to be a stronger person. guess it's time to get those muscles of the corners of my mouth to work.

20071207

9 crimes



damien rice
lisa hannigan

20071116

我唔敢喇

今時今日,一個人快樂 o既關鍵,可能唔在於多唔多錢,社會地位高唔高,而係好可能關鍵於一部手提電話。

係人都試過冇帶電話,一定好唔方便,必須要打電話時唯有搵入銀/卡電話。但係我覺得自從手提電話流通之後,要搵個入錢電話唔係話咁易,有時有 d 仲淨係可以入卡,乜果 d 地方淨係得外傭要打電話 o既咩?我有次好難過 o既經歷...

約左個有人話我見過 o既人 o係地鐵站度等,由另一個人轉達左我著左條好鮮艷 o既長褲,25 分鐘度到。去到唔覺眼有似目標人物 o既物體就睇下書,反正我有目標人物 o既電話,雖然我無帶手提,但地鐵站實有電話亭架嘛。睇左兩頁書,仲未見人,去問補票處邊度有電話亭,搵到諗住打,個電話原來係壞 o既,咁又行番去約好等果度又望下,仲係未冇人,於是我都懶醒,唔問本地人借電話,知佢地實有上黃金討論區,我問外藉女傭,幾乎未講完我要講 o既野,佢已經一路口 upup一面走緊,我好似聽到佢話唔借,可能印傭都有睇警訊。受挫後行去站另一邊睇下有冇第二個電話,無!又返返去約定地點,仲係唔見人,我諗不如出閘去搵佢,但我又驚可能佢已經唔係果度,我走開左佢又到咁點算。於是我又鼓足被重重打沉左一次 o既勇氣向第二個人埋手,我話:「先生,我等緊人但我無帶電話,你可唔可以幫我打呢個電話,話比佢知... 「我都無帶電話呀。」我句野又係未講完,佢就咁回應我,我唯有笑話你都無帶電話呀... 然後,有位女士行埋我同個男人度,問你係咪 sheys 呀?我的天呀,原來呢個我一早見到、同我一樣 o係果度等左咁耐 o既女士就係我等緊果個人!我敢肯定我未見過呢個人,而傳達我著咩褲 o既人亦講錯左我著裙。我話我其實想問你借電話呀,早知我一早鼓起勇氣問你借電話就好啦。如果係咁,起碼我可以問少一個人借電話,後來發現原來佢唔係無帶電話,只係佢睇左同事三分親有集講有個台灣人話俾人打劫但又趕住去機場問人借 6 千蚊果集,只係佢只接受有個果婆呃人電話,而無接受到最後台灣人真係還返 6千蚊 o既結局,所以唔肯幫我打呢個電話。

第一次問印傭借個電話打,佢驚我攞佢電話,唔借都好合情理;第二次問男士,我係話幫我打呢個電話,唔係叫佢比個電話我打,佢都唔肯幫。佢擔心 d 咩?我打俾同黨,有左佢個號碼勒索佢?當佢聽到我同女士之間 o既對話,之後o係我仲可以見到 o既範圍之內講電話,唔知佢有咩感想?我希望佢係有感想而唔係覺得超理得你,又或者個感想係,你場戲都做得有頭有尾喎。

最令我難過 o既係,呢個地方 o既人對其他人 o既信任原來已經低到零,應該該話猜疑高到爆晒燈,幫人打個電話都驚有危險。可能手提同個號碼都太重要,令人變得太敏感,一揩到呢樣野就令人神經緊張。利用人同情心 o既騙徒係最可恥,受騙 o既人唔敢再相信人,覺得自己係白痴,久而久之,人人地唔理其他人死活,跌銀包呀?行路返屋企啦;無帶電話呀?果度有電話亭喎(但巧合係個電話係壞 o既),咁多巧合?咁我都無帶電話 lu。

alanis morissette
ironic 節錄

well life has a funny way of sneaking up on u when you think everything's okay and everything's going right

and life has a funny way of helping u out when u think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face

20071111

facebook group 護生共同體

經 j 知道有個 group 叫護生共同體,於是去望望。睇過簡介,覺得發起人真係好有心,想出一分力去改變世界,由自己開始一日至少一素,希望提倡未能完全素食 o既朋友,可以嘗試以一日一素踏出第一步。

然後我諗起呢個網頁,同自己 既傲慢。會咁諗完全同護生共同體無關,佢地唔係傲慢,我尊重佢地 o既善意。問題係我自己。網頁裹面有一句 Some people become overly bossy when they become environmentalists. 呢句野令我感受好深。我稱唔上環保份子,但係我已經有呢種傲慢。食素好叻咩?見到動物被用作動物測試會喊好特別咩?識用慳電膽收埋一堆報紙雜誌單張包裝紙麥當奴紙袋水電卡數強積金郵件信封去回收大晒架?成日咦咦哦哦人地只會覺得好有壓力。或者除左要好似護生共同體講咁學習不隨便傷害其他生命、不為了一時食慾而取用其他生命、保護其他生命之餘,我更加需要學習消除我慢。

「每一餐改變世界,每個人一天有三次機會改變世界,重點是,你吃什麼東西,全是你自己的選擇,如果只有你一個人每天選擇比較健康的食物,當然不會造成多大 的不同,但如果一百萬人做同樣的選擇,就會造成很大的不同,越多人開始做些改變,越多農民會被激勵用無害的方式種植或養殖,那麼就會讓我們更容易從附近的 農場買到健康的食物。 」
Jane Goodall

引以上一段由護生共同體所引 o既 Jane Goodal 關於 mindful eating o既話,除左因為無自信之外,仲因為我覺得呢位女士真係好值得尊敬。

20071108

高踭鞋


care free 就是這個樣子。我今日就係咁 care freee 咁,跣低左。


當時我路過一斜板,心想無事 o既,點知諗緊中途已經 care free。好在果度唔係大街大巷,周圍望唔覺有人,不過天在看,地在轉,人在戰,可能只係自己以為瞞天過海矣。

可能終於時辰到,我呢排經常經歷瀕仆狀態,次次都應一應但又無真係仆低,不過個心離一離咁。皇天不負有心人,揀中今日著成咁成就呢齣無觀眾o既喜劇。

經一事反一智,以後著斗零踭黑絲襪同短裙時唔好博以為自己實唔會跣低喇。

ps 絲襪同個人竟然都無因為意外而穿窿,真係好好彩,多謝晒~~

20071105

我的密陽

我們在天上的父,願人都遵祢的名為聖,願祢的國降臨,願祢的旨意行在地上如同行在天上。我們日用的飲食,今日賜給我們,免我們的債,如同我們免了人的債。不叫我們遇見試探,救我們脫離兇惡,因為國度、權柄、榮耀,全是你的,直到永遠。

假如真的有神,為何我無辜的兒子要死得如此殘酷?


「一切乃是神的意旨。」


一切一切,都是神的意旨。多麼美滿。

人都有罪,生下來就有原罪;人都空虛,知識、金錢、情慾都不能填充,因為這個空虛只能由神去填滿,當有神在其中,人就不再空虛。

一切一切都是神的意旨。明明是個人,卻淪為玩偶般身不由己滿身罪孽而空虛的慾望奴隸,直至神在你當中,直至神赦免你的罪。一切一切都是神的意旨。多麼美滿。

請愛你的仇敵,為他禱告,同時咒詛你的敵人,願他的兒女為孤兒,他的妻子為寡婦,願他的後人斷絕。如此而已。

20071031

生活小故事 - give me a 車立

如果人類之間 o既愛都涉及體液交換同企圖共渡餘生,咁以下我想講 o既應該係一個關於情 o既故事。

有一男一女,阿姐大叔,每日相對,雖然係咁,兩個人 o既相聚時間唔算多,咁 o岩兩個人一齊得閒就有一句無一句咁閒話家常。有一次,有個諸事理見好多日無見阿姐就問大叔,阿姐無做拿?唔係,放假返左鄉下。如是者隔左幾個月,阿姐又唔見左好多日,仲變埋 d 生面口阿叔,大叔面色越厘越唔對路,平日笑笑口早晨早晨無晒,苦瓜越厘越乾,諸事厘於是又問大叔,阿姐無做拿?返左鄉下呀。哦放假呀(雖然覺得可能性唔高)?佢XXXX所以返左鄉下呀,佢話(公司)等得就等,唔等得就請過第二個啦咁話。諸事理無意中侵犯左阿姐私隱之餘亦解開左心裹面 o既疑惑,但同時又多左一絲愁緒。

日復一日,當陌生阿叔開始被消化,突然阿姐又出現番!大叔笑容番晒厘,對住諸小姐仲笑得曖昧,令人懷疑係想回應諸小姐話掛住阿姐而瞹眛。至此諸小姐至發現,原來阿姐就係大叔面色唔對路同笑番 o既原因,或者大叔自己都唔覺,但感情就係咁發生同滋長。又或者佢自己都明白,唔需要更加唔可能改變宜家 o既相處方式,畢竟雙方都只能夠付出到呢種地步,應該已經係最適當。

能成為密友大概總帶著愛,能夠克己應該就係情。

20071008

2012 撐普選


原來陳太都有厘到


鳥瞰圖


獻醜喇


後來睇番新聞先知原來陳太厘左,再後來睇番報紙先知原來遊行完結前佢去恤髮。鐘意恤髮呢個詞語,好似好文雅好似書面語但我懷疑除左講白話 o既人無人知咩叫恤髮,可能八字頭妹妹仔仔都唔知。好似好多人對恤髮呢件事好有意見,有咩所謂姐,咁人地真係有約嘛,唔通要人蓬頭垢面周身香汗咁赴約咩?我都因為之後有下文無去到遊行啦,大家快 d 厘聲討我啦。我知我無陳太咁靚無酒凹無著旗袍,唔好蔑我啦~~~

圖片來源:第 1, 2 幅 ﹣ 2012我要普選網頁

20070930

that is fucking sick!!!

that is way too fucking sick to see those animals being tested or hurt for various reasons just because they're too vulnerable to protect themselves and we take every advantage on them as we can just because we do as we please, because we are selfish and cruel!! this is the rage i cant hold. i really hate this to my guts!!! i regret to have watched that. IF WE ARE THE SMARTEST, STRONGEST ON EARTH, AREN'T WE SUPPOSE TO PROTECT THE REST OF THEM? how can i not be disappointed to be part of this shameful species.

below quoted from
香港討論區 易兒咦, i dont wanna post the link because there are disturbing pictures, but i do respect the author of the post. please make use of the list and help stopping animal testing.

COMPANIES THAT DO TEST ON ANIMALS (cosmetic/dialy care/food products)
經動物測驗研發產品的廠商(化妝美容/護理產品/食品):
只列出港人較熟悉的品牌

  1. Alcon Labs
  2. Baush & Lomb (Curel, Soft Sense, Clear Choice)
  3. Boots Plc
  4. Boyle-Midway (Lancaster)
  5. Calvin Klein (Unilever)
  6. Chesebrough-Ponds (Cutex, Oil of Olay, Vaseline)
  7. Clairol Inc. (Proctor & Gamble)
  8. Colgate-Palmolive Co. (Palmolive, Hill's Science Diet)
  9. Cosme Decorte
  10. Coty ( Lancaster)
  11. Cover Girl (Procter & Gamble)
  12. Donna Karan Beauty Company (Has anti-animal testing policy, but markets fur)
  13. Elizabeth Arden (Unilever)
  14. Erno Laszlo
  15. Est赌e Lauder Cos.(Clinique, Origins, Donna Karan, MAC, Prescriptives, Tommy Hilfiger) (has formal anti-testing campaign, but is responsible for a lot of fur marketing and propaganda)
  16. Ettusais
  17. Fendi (Elizabeth Arden)
  18. Helene Curtis Industries (Finesse, Unilever)
  19. Henkel (Schwarzkopf)
  20. IAMS
  21. IPSA
  22. Johnson & Johnson (Neutrogena, Clean & Clear, Roc)
  23. KAO Cosmetics
  24. Kanebo
  25. Kimberly-Clark Corp. (Kleenex, Scott Paper, Huggies)
  26. Kinarese (Valeant Pharmaceuticals)
  27. Kose
  28. Laboratoires Garnier (Maybelline)
  29. L'Or赌al ( Biotherm, Cacharel, Helena Rubenstein,La Roche Posey, Lancôme, Lanvin, L'Or赌al, Phas, Polo, Ralph Lauren, Vichy)
  30. Max Factor (Procter & Gamble)
  31. Neutrogena
  32. Noxell (Procter & Gamble)
  33. Olay Co./Oil of Olay (Procter & Gamble)
  34. Oral-B (Gillette Co.)
  35. Pantene (Procter & Gamble)
  36. Parfums Givenchy SA (Givenchy, Extravagance, Amarige)
  37. Parker Pens (Gillette Co.)
  38. Pfizer Inc. (Bain de Soleil, Visine, Plax, BenGay, Viagra!)
  39. Playtex Products Inc. (Banana Boat)
  40. PPR Group/Pinault-Printemps-Redoute(Gucci, Yves Saint Laurent)
  41. Prada Group (Fendi)
  42. Procter & Gamble Co. (Crest, Vidal Sassoon, Cover Girl, Max Factor,Hugo Boss)
  43. Scott Paper Co.
  44. Seven Seas
  45. Shiseido Company Ltd.
  46. Sofina
  47. 3M (Scotch, Post-It)
  48. Unilever (Calvin Klein, Elizabeth Arden,Dove, Finesse, Pond's, Vaseline)
  49. Vidal Sassoon
查看更全面資料:
http://pw2.netcom.com/%7Eaxleplus/stuff/hotstuff/company.html


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COMPANIES THAT DON'T TEST ON ANIMALS
(cosmetic products)
沒有經動物測驗研發產品的品牌
(化妝美容產品):
只列出港人較熟悉的品牌


歐美品牌:

A'kin
Aramis
Bobbi Brown
Borghese
The Body Shop
Burt`s bees
Chanel 
Clarins
Clinique
Conair
Crabtree&Evelyn
Decleor
Dermalogica
Disney Fairies

Disney Princess
Dr.Hauschka 
Eucerin
Forever Living Products Int.
Freeman Beauty

Giorgio Armani Beauty
Goldwell USA
H2O plus
Hello Kitty
Jameison Laboratories
John Masters Organics
Juice Beauty,Inc
Jurlique
Kielh's 
La Mer
La Prairie

L'OCCITANE
LUSH
Mary Kay 
NATURE'S

NIVEA
NU SKIN
OPI
ORLANE
REVLON
SIMPLE
SMASHBOX COMETICS
Stila
Urban Decay
Victoria's Secret

Wella 
死海鹹溫泉SPA

韓國品牌:

MISSHA


日本品牌:
日本國內認證合格所有品牌
Utena、Orbis、黑龍堂、DHC、Nippi Collagen Cosmetics、
HABA、Fancl、Sony CP Lab.

(資料來源 --> JAVA日本廢止動物實驗協會)

其他相關資訊:
http://www.caringconsumer.com/resources_companies.asp
www.allveganshopping.com
www.veganstore.com
http://www.animalalliance.ca/projects/2001%20cpt%20guide.pdf

20070928

look for an s!!

o係右手邊 Priceless 新增之連結 look for an s!!,係一個非常難 load 出厘 的頁面,其實係相簿,希望打算點擊的朋友,比多一點耐性。多謝。

20070925

電影 ﹣登月直播 The Dish (2000)

我必須要道個歉,因為我實在太低估星期六黃昏時間 o既交通情況,預左 9 個字都唔夠,足足遲左 5 個字先入到場。入到去驚為天人,竟然咁多人睇,雖然錯過左大拿拿 5 個字時間,但唔太影響對於齣戲 o既理解,因為,佢係齣喜劇丫嘛~

一路睇,我覺得佢其實可以上正場,主角係 Sam Neill,up 唔出做過乜但總之好熟口面,如果卡士再勁 d,上正場應該都收得下。因為受到 k 小姐恐嚇,我都驚驚地,睇落先知係戲劇唔係紀綠片,紀綠片唔一定悶但無人想要喎 d 飛,但原來,佢係齣喜劇厘架喎~ 有輕鬆有緊張有輕到無左都無所謂 o既感情線,唔係套令人覺得好深奧嚇到冇人想睇,但又唔會係套令人好深刻好正 o既戲,不過畫面同顏色好靚。至於羊咩... 可能 o係我入場前已經出場,我唔見佢地喎。呢場戲由個陰影籠罩出發,一切都變得喜出望外。

到臨尾太空人踏足月球片段播出厘果下,我都好感動,覺得呢件事真係好神奇好正,雖然一直有把聲係左手邊話:「假架,感動喎,咪傻啦~」我都仲係覺得幾感動。你願唔願意相信呢件創舉只係一個騙局?

圖片來源:澳洲電影節2007

20070924

白牌車


呢架似我心目中 o既白牌車,但佢唔係白牌車

我一直以為白牌車係私家車充當的士的一種過渡交通工具,錯晒,原來佢係小巴 o既前身 9 座位,衍生於火紅年代。載住一車車心跳過快 o既乘客,o係滿街菠蘿 o既街道穿插,司機為 o既係一家大細,都唔理得幾時會俾珠江汔水掟中。我成日有種太過浪漫/殘忍 o既諗法,生活 o係動盪年代,果一刻當然係今日唔知聽日事,但質感豐富,變數多,機會多,體驗都會多 d,無太多保護,人先會成長。到老左都可以同 d 唔想聽 o既 o靚仔講下六七暴動果時喎,我咁 o岩 o係個俾 d 左仔捉住 o既鬼佬隔厘,佢被人迫講毛主席萬歲喎佢鬼識咩,咁我又識少少英文咪同佢講囉...

9唔搭8伸延:電腦領域
初次圖片來源:Wikipedia
目前圖片來源:HKWBBS

20070921

手慾‧口慾

紅 van 我唔係好肯定,我估起碼大多數係冇落車鐘,要嗌司機先會停車。而綠 van 就應該係全部都有鐘可以手禁。每當我搭綠 van,一定有人手禁鐘,癲 don~~,司機手都唔遞一下,到站,停車,乘客匆匆落車,司機亦好狠想夾死你班衰人咁款,等你隻後腳仲係級上面已經開車,雖然你總能夠全身而退,無比隻門夾住拖行 1 公里都無人知。呢 d 都唔係我想講 o既野。我想講 o既係,點解乘客想手禁鐘?


無鐘 o既年代,大家都嗌:「司機,唔該有落。」熱情 o既司機會答你好呀,叫你小心落車之類,cool d o既都會遞下手,幾咁溫馨細膩。有左個鐘,癲 don,大家近在咫尺,癲 don,司機手都唔遞一下,到站,停車,乘客匆匆落車,司機亦好狠想夾死你班衰人咁款,等你隻後腳仲係級上面已經開車,雖然你總能夠全身而退,無比隻門夾住拖行 1 公里都無人知。呢 d 都唔係我想講 o既野。我想講 o既係,比著我係司機,我都唔會遞手,你明明可以用人同人o既方法同我溝通,雖然只係一句司機,唔該有落,同一句好呀或一下手勢咁短暫 o既溝通,你都選擇癲 don,我會覺得自己唔再係個人,而係一部機器。我唔想承認我係一部我根本唔係 o既機器。


點解綠 van 上面會有鐘?最初點解有呢個構思?唔通因為沙示,個個戴住口罩唔想講野所以要手禁鐘?因為有好多曾經為喉嚨痛所苦 o既乘客比意見小巴公司,意見被接納所以衍生出厘?因為個社會越厘越自閉,為左貼合大眾需要所以要加設呢個自閉設施等大家連呢個小小 o既溝通都可以慳番?最後我會唔會好反高潮咁自爆,其實我都係個手禁鐘客?


圖片來源:進智公交

20070917

哪吒

生日過得多,今年還是頭一次自動選擇同爸媽過。人大了,理想沒有實現,對社會也沒貢獻,漸漸不知道生日為甚麼要慶祝。如果真有人為這個日子開心過,那個應該是我爸媽,再者這些年來辛辛苦苦生我育我,而我一心只想搗亂,要慶祝應該都是為他們,不是為我。我想就算所有人都離棄我,最後還愛我的都會是他們。

又想起那句話:成長多麼激烈。誰沒有年青過?迷茫過?人越大越能體會,就能體諒。回頭一看,再激烈的恨都沉澱了,剩下清澈的愛。我沒資格說原諒,不如說聲謝謝。

20070915

無蛋紐約芝士餅


戒蛋之後,唯一令我懷念 o既係 tiramisu。其他我唔太懷念,但叫得做蛋糕 o既我都冇再食過。曾經望過下 d vegan receipe,覺得一 d 都唔吸引所以完全無擺 o係心度,已經疊埋心水同蛋糕告別。

有晩 k 話好想食芝士蛋糕,我話唔識整,佢話你唔係唔識,係唔整姐。咁我就諗下應該點整啦,應該用咩代借蛋呢?蛋白質... 豆腐?跟住上網搵,真係搵到個食譜係用豆腐整。個食譜係教整檸檬芝士餅,我唔鐘意咁整,減左檸檬汁,變成咁:

125g 消化餅
45g 無鹽牛油
一磚 ﹣ 滑豆腐
一磚 ﹣ cream cheese
3/5 杯糖
1/2 茶匙 almond extract (買到就加啦,我就無喇)
2 湯匙粟粉

1) 牛油熱水座溶,消化餅壓至粉碎,加溶牛油混合後壓平於 7" 餅模底,完成餅底備用;

2) 豆腐、cream cheese、糖一同放攪拌機攪至滑;

3) 以細碗勻和 almond extract、粟粉、水適量,加進芝士豆腐中,攪至滑;

4) 預熱焗爐 180C 5 分鐘,芝士傾入餅模焗 40 分鐘,取出置室溫 2 小時或待涼後,冷藏過夜。

以前整紐約芝士餅,材料同呢個食譜差唔多,不過芝士用多一倍,要用兩磚,蛋兩隻,真係幾 heavy,但亦都真係好好食 o既。宜家用豆腐代蛋,芝士用少 d,但買相同味道一 d 都唔遜色,芝士同豆腐竟然好夾,好開心可以重拾食蛋糕 o既樂趣但又唔駛食蛋。

另介紹位於九龍灣淘大 o既 Buddha Hut o既素 tiramisu,好食到非常,服務好,地方企理,價錢唔貴,唔係素食者都會鐘意。我都好恨整到咁 o既 素 tiramisu 呀。

20070823

im expendable but the planet's not

it's heartbreaking to breath, to eat, to feel to know everything's falling apart, to be a virus to this watery globe, decaying it bit by bit and to decay with it. so shameless and numb, and somehow, fearless in the darkest ecstasy when u see no future ahead.

shed my tears if i might before i go into that tunnel of darkness.